I am….
I am lost….
The type of lost when a
Constant feeling is suddenly
Shattered into a million pieces.
I am confused….
A type of confusion where
Nothing makes sense anymore
And awkward moments plague me.
I am broken….
For a few happy seconds I forget..
I then remember that my whole world
Has been turned upside down.
You are my home,
My soulmate,
My life.
And now….
I am numb.
Life Through A Lens 
Love Without You
Love without you
is cold and rough and hard and meaningless
and fills my empty bones
with sweat and injects my heart
with an ache
no amount of Zoloft will fix.
Love without you
feels like the sky has fallen into the earth
and all the stars
around the world have all gone out
at once;
I’m fumbling a strange woman’s face
in the dark trying to
forget (or find) yours.
Love without you
is every shade of gray folded in on itself
and a never ending silence filled with empty
moans between the sheets
of someone else’s bed, in some place
that I will never call home.